With the baby on the way I have been thinking about what types of parents Kristy and I will be. I am 100% sure she is going to be the best mom ever, next to mine of course (in case she reads this…love you Mom!). But for me, there are things I am almost positive I am going to mess up on. It is not a question of desire to do the right thing at all, because I do. I just know that I am human and will inevitably make mistakes or pass on bad habits that I have, so as my first post for my future child, I would like to apologize for the things that may or may not bother him or her when they grow up and are old enough to realize just how much we messed them up…
I apologize for:
- listening to music all the time. I am sure it gets annoying, but hopefully you will understand one day what drives me to do what I do. Your mother is more tolerant of it by now I am sure…
- being a musician/teacher. I love what I do, but I really wish I could provide more financially for you. I am confident that you are happy with what you have, but it is just something I wish I could do more for you.
- not being more active and “sporty”. I can’t help it. The things I love to do the most always involve standing or sitting for long periods of time. I promise to go outside and play as often as you want me to.
- for not providing you with the spiritual guidance that you wanted. I still grapple with my own beliefs and faiths and I wish I had better answers for you than I do right now, but I promise to keep my mind open and help you discover you.
- for being the annoying father who insists on saying “I love you” in front of your friends. I am sure you will hate it, but this one you will just have to live with, sorry…
- for not being as healthy as I should be. Just know that I have wrestled with this for the majority of my life, and hopefully by the time you actually read this, I will be fit and trim and healthy, but if not, please know that your soon-to-be existence in my life is the number one drive to help me fix this.
That is all I can think of for now. To future-child: I hope you can forgive me for these things when you are old enough to, or perhaps none of this ever bothered you…and in that case, forget I said anything!
